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Sunday, August 25, 2019

Twas the Night Before School Starts

school startsIt is the night before school starts! The last week has been full of working in my classroom, lesson planning, buying supplies, and getting organized for the new group of scholars I will be meeting tomorrow. I have had my class list for a few weeks, I have memorized their names and faces and hope to greet them with all of the excitement the first day should bring. It's a new year, full of
possibilities and new adventures.

Each year (yes, even after 15 years) the night before school starts has me rilled up. I will be nervous and unable to sleep well. I will be anxious and worried - just as I was each year as a student growing up. Somethings never change I guess. The nerves will subside once we are all in our classroom and we get down to the business of getting to know each other. When the fun begins!

These are my kids for the next 180 days (and every year after I say goodbye). I want to make the most of this year. I want the kids to go home excited they are in our class. I want that feeling to remain throughout the year. Yes, even on the days when it is hard for them - and for me.

Of course, I will be teaching core academics, mindfulness, and everything else that is required but most importantly I hope that they learn that they can be anything they want to be, they are capable of doing more than they think is possible, they are an important part of the lives of each and every person we share our classroom with.

So here is to another wonderful year! I hope your new school year is wonderful!

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Becoming a Better Me

I love teaching. I mean, I really love teaching! It is something that I have wanted to do since I was 5 and it is the only thing I could ever imagine doing. It is my happy place. Someone recently said that teaching isn't just my job, it is my hobby, and you know what? She was right. It is my hobby and my job. But the thing is I spiral and that isn't always good for me.

I get to the point where I am short-tempered, tired, and stressed, and then I feel like I have to do more in order to make it all "right." Everything needs to be perfect. When in reality there is no way that it can be, it's impossible. So I keep spinning all the plates hoping that it is enough.

I have been a podcast junkie for some time (this is going to connect - I promise) and I love to binge podcasts. I found two podcasts recently that focus on teacher health Just Meg and Healthy Teacher, Happy Teacher with Jessica Martin, Both of these teachers have been very open about their anxiety and their health. It has been refreshing to listen to other teachers who have given all to their students and classrooms and who are dealing with issues with anxiety and weight issues. It was like a breath of fresh air to hear others give voice to some of the issues that I felt were unique to me. I am not alone.

There are so many teachers who have anxiety but it is something we don't talk about. I come from "a nervous family" as my mom would say. She had issues with anxiety and it is something that one of my brothers and I have had to deal with as well. Medication has been a lifesaver but also a millstone. There is a desire to skip doses in the evening but I know that I need it to stay on an even keel. I have always been very emotional and empathic toward others. Both can make days exhausting. But when I come home I don't always recharge for me. I do more for work, do housework, and take care of those I love. I have (finally) come to the realization that in order to be any good for those I love I need to start putting myself first. I need to live my best life and in order to do that, I need to be healthy. That means taking my anxiety meds as prescribed, finding time to read, write, - and yes, exercising.

I don't always deal well with New Year's Resolutions in January but I seem to always make them in August as the new school year (hence a new year) starts. So here is my resolution for 19-20, I will find time each day for me. Even it if is just 5 or 10 minutes. I will make the time to get healthy by eating better and exercising.

I am sharing this here because that way it will make me more accountable. I need to be held to the iron and I need to dedicate time to take care of me. How many of you have the same issues or concerns? I think it is more widespread in our profession than we would like to admit. I would love to hear your stories if you are willing to share them.

Monday, July 15, 2019

Substitute Binder: What and Why?

 the beginning of the new school year, I thought I would offer this resource to others who may find it useful for their own classes. It took a while because I was missing steps but I finally figured out how to create each page as an editable form in Adobe Reader. Download what you would like to use for your own class. (It would be cool if you would let me know how it works for you.)

I don't know about many of you, but I was a substitute teacher for 3 years before I became a full-time classroom teacher. I was in classrooms where everything was laid out for me, where things were generally spelled out - with some guesswork involved, and in rooms where there was nothing but a box of stuff and a post-it that said, "Good luck!" (Yes, really!) I quickly found out what I thought I really did or did not need when walking into a classroom.

In an attempt to help the guest teachers in my room I always left very detailed plans. I would use the same skeleton and fill in the blanks when I left. What I quickly found though was that often it was a lot and it was overwhelming. I saw a lot of "Sub Tubs" making the rounds on social media several years ago and decided what I needed was a binder with all of the "Must Knows" and "Would Like to Knows" for those who are guest teaching in my classroom. Things I would want to know if necessary but not necessarily laid out in the daily plans.
I mean, c'mon, it is cute!
With Maria leaving and Tracy coming in as my new partner many things in our sub binder needed to be changed. Plus, if I am being honest, I wanted to print it all out again because I have cute Snoopy paper from Eureka School Supplies that I wanted to put it on.

The binder starts off with a letter welcoming the guest to our class and explaining that I have overplanned for the day (I always do - just in case) and that this binder is here to help as much as possible. I add a photo print out of the kids with their names that get from our Aries attendance system. I have several pages with things like our attention getters and rules regarding things like flexible seating and bathroom procedures. Things I don't want the kids to have to explain and not be believed (it has happened). Each page is in a page protector so the student health and RSP pages I just write on the page protector and clean off at the end of the year.

Bitmoji ImageI have found that this helps ensure our class runs smoothly when I am out. Though let's be honest it really comes down to class procedures and how well the kids can run the room without me. That is always the best sign that I am doing my job correctly!

I have included a few of the pages that I have in my binder as well so that you can see what information I include. If you're like, cool, I like that! Then feel free to download the file I actually use in my binder.

The editable boxes are set to show up in KG Ten Thousand Reasons which I got for free as part of a bundle on Teachers Pay Teachers.

If you decide to use any, or all, of this binder please, leave a comment so that I know you found it helpful.

Sub Binder Contents

Editable Sub Binder Cover
Editable Sub Binder Intro Letter
Editable Table of Contents
Attention Getters/Call Backs - the only one that is original to me is the marker song
Editable Attention Getters/Call Backs
Student Health Information
RSP & Speech Information
Editable Birthday List
Basic Student Responsibilities
Editable Basic Student Responsibilities
Class Rules/What to Do in Case of Discipline
Editable Class Rules/What to Do in Case of Discipline
Flexible Seating
Editable Flexible Seating
Editable Technology
Editable Student of the Day/Week
Editable School Library Procedures
Editable Class Library Procedures 
Editable Fire Drill
Editable Lock Down Drill
No Excuse Spelling Words (this is a resource - kids have these on the wall I just like having them in one place for me)
Editable Guest Teacher Note

Saturday, July 13, 2019

Here's to New Beginnings!

Well, it's done! They found someone to replace Maria as my teaching partner for the coming year. It best friend! So anxiety abated and now I can focus on teaching and what the new year will look like for us.

I haven't taught with Tracy before but we have worked on the same grade level for years and I was in her room a number of times in my role as an Instructional Specialist. So, it's not like we aren't familiar with each other's teaching styles. I think it will be a great year.

It's July and I am getting the itch. The itch to be in my room. The itch to be with my kids. The itch to get back at it. Still, I am also enjoying the time I have to rest, relax, and recharge. I have read a number of books, am enjoying the time with friends and family, as well as all of the Netflix binges that we are doing now that we have time without my nightly school work.

I hope you are enjoying your summer too!

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Mixed Feelings About Change

Anyone who knows me knows that I do not accept change well. I look forward to things with trepidation and anxiety. All the while, working to try to manage an outcome I can live with while thinking of every bad thing that can happen along the way. Even when I want the change. When I seek it. When I instigate it. I still react the same way. So it is funny that I chose a career that only has a semblance of day-to-day normalcy. Yet it is the most amazing thing I could do with my life and despite the days (or weeks) of anxiety I can't imagine doing anything else.

Since the day the first of my two younger brothers was born I took the role of teacher seriously. (I mean he wasn't even allowed to play unless he followed my directions.) Puberty started young and this made me an outsider at school. I wasn't sure how to navigate the world. I found respite first in the school library where I was taught how to speed read and then in the kindergarten classroom where I learned to love teaching and where I discovered my desire to become a teacher. I never lost sight of this dream, but life had a way of throwing curve balls that kept me from pursuing my degree right out of high school.

When I finally became a teacher it was (of course) harder than I thought it would be but also more rewarding than I could have ever dreamt. I honestly don't know what I would do if I wasn't allowed to teach for some reason. School, working with kids, it brings me happiness in a way nothing else in my life does.

Each time I took the leap and made the decision to make changes in my job site or grade level I have done so with fear and with excitement. Sort of like the way I always feel the night before school starts. Butterflies in my stomach and a nagging fear that keeps me from sleeping but with an underlining excitement for what the new year and new class will bring.

When I started working as an Instructional Specialist and had to share my classroom with another teacher it was an adjustment. I probably wasn't the easiest person to begin sharing a room with but I have grown so much over the last three years and I know that this has made me a better teacher. This is an experience I am grateful for and one that I would not trade for the world.

Yet change comes and of course, I am facing it again. The unknown. The uncertainty. It is too much for me.  My teaching partner has chosen to accept a position to go back into the classroom full-time which means there are a number of questions that have to be answered before a new partner can be found.

I know me. I know that I am a lot to deal with at times. I know that I have issues when it comes to my classroom and my kids. I know this will make it harder to adjust to someone new coming in. This person has to be a special breed of teacher. This new partner will not only have to be able to work with me without wanting to kill me, without me wanting to kill him/her and to step into the shoes of someone who was an ideal partner. This is a short list. A very short list. Right or wrong, I have asked several people to consider applying. I have high hopes that they will and that the best of these candidates will be chosen to work with me in the coming years. This is a lot. I know. The waiting is killing me. The what ifs? The unknown, the anxiety, and the need to control the situation around me are proving to be harder than I expected (though honestly, not harder for me than what my friends expected - says a lot about their understanding of my personality and of my view of my personality at times). So here I am, cleaning out and rearranging closets and drawers at home (and at school), starting projects for next year, and focusing on the small things I can control. All in the hope that it will help me deal with the unknown. Wish me luck that it works!

How do you deal with change? What are some things you do to keep your anxiety levels down?

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

THANK YOU GIVEAWAY! Made it to 2,000 followers!

Happy New Year! Seems like a giveaway would be a great way to welcome in 2019. 

I love my PLN, it has helped me grow and become a better teacher. I have learned so much from everyone I interact with online and everyone I follow. I am so appreciative of those who follow me as well. So to celebrate the fact that I now have 2,000 followers on Twitter. I would like to thank you by hosting a giveaway. 

I am giving away a  $50 gift certificate to Creative Teaching Press. Though I am a brand ambassador for this company this gift card is not associated with that program and is strictly from me. It is my thank you for following me. 

Good luck!

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Monday, December 3, 2018

Doing a Double Take - Feels Like I Need to Explain...

Sometimes someone says something and it stays with you. Nagging. Bothering you and you just aren't sure why.

This happened to me this week. Someone I respect inquired about my new position and how I liked my new school. I was honest and said I loved it! Her response is what threw me. She said she knew I was happier because I was tweeting more. 

I am not sure that is accurate. I am tweeting more. I have more time. I am not on any after school committees. I have collaborative during the workday rather than after. More of my time is mine to focus on what I am teaching and how I can help others. When I sit down at lunch or at the end of the day I remember to tweet the photos I took rather than working until I go to bed (by choice usually) I have an hour or two to do something else. 

I loved my class at my former school. I loved my job. I do not love this new job anymore or any less, just in a very different way. I think the difference really comes down to the fact that I was at the same site for 9 years and that was the longest I had ever been at a site (we had pink slips and movement during the first part of my career), or in a classroom. 

Earlier in the week, someone else had said that she "knew [I] always wanted to be at [new site]". This bothered me too. 

I did not spend the last 9 years bemoaning my situation, sad that I wasn't at another site. I was happy working there but I needed a change more than I realized. That is not to say I wasn't happy where I was, I am just happier now. 

When looking back over the last 9 years the majority of them had some major negative, heart-breaking events happen each year. My mom was sick, I had miscarriages, I found out I wasn't going to be able to have a family, and then my mom died. Tragedy after tragedy. So much heartbreak. 

So changing schools is not just a return to a site I was once at, or a new opportunity (though it is that too). It is a fresh start. My classroom has no memories of tears associated with it. No fears of bad news. No awful events. I think that makes a huge difference. One I didn't realize was an issue, at least until it wasn't. 

So, yes, I am happier where I am now, but it has way more to do with me than with anything work-related. 

Have you ever had to reexamine something about your job after someone made a seemingly innocuous remark? Tell me about it in the comments below, I would love to hear about how it affected you. 

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